Substitutionary Atonement
or Participatory Redemption?
A couple of things before I reflect on this day:
1) What follows is not actually written on Good Friday. I chose to fast and pray yesterday, the actual Good Friday. In a Talking Circle on Thursday, we were asked by the elder to take the day for fasting and prayer. As I had joined them for a 3-4 day fast a few years ago (see here) and it was a profound experience, I figured it was time to do it again. I considered doing it for 3 days again, but chose instead, for one day. Good Friday. No food, no technology - only a book and prayer.
2) To be clear, I was raised in a Christian family - my parents were, their parents were, and on so and back. Therefore, I am not a 'new Christian' and I am captivated by the history, the line of the faithful. As I continue to live, I have come to a point where I am embracing more of life and living, and my beliefs are a part of that. I believe God is where God will be, and not where I say that he is. I believe there is much more to this than the label we give it. And, I believe God's love is for all creation. If someone were to tell me that they did not want to talk about 'that' (faith), then they would be saying that they did not want to talk about 'me' ... for it is as integral to me as my gender or my hobbies. However, because of what I do believe, I endeavour to make it as inclusive as possible, because my faith is inclusive. There is a part of me, a growing part, that is embracing something called 'universal salvation', and it gives me a peace heretofore never felt.
Thus, a reflection on Good Friday, of what this day is about, is part of who I am. Part of what I wrestle with. Part of what I celebrate. The life and death and resurrection of Jesus.
This year, I am reading a book - The Last Week by Marcus J. Borg and John Dominic Crossan. Both Borg and Crossan are men steeped in biblical knowledge and understanding, both know more than most on the context and reality of what was going on at that time. They are also part of something called The Jesus Seminar. This is a group of Bible scholars and laymen who, in 1985 under Robert Funk, gathered to examine the Gospels and New Testament with a bit of a different lens. As far as I can tell, at this point in my reading, they do not dismiss Christ's redemptive purpose (or, maybe it's that from my reading, their propositions are not in direct conflict with my beliefs? At least not yet) but they bring a lot of context and cultural understanding into the narrative, which is something I greatly appreciate.
One of the things I have been reflecting on over the last year, is what would it mean to be a 'Christian Anarchist'. There is so much in organized Christianity today that does not sit well with me, and in a discussion with a friend, he referred to a statement made by Tolstoy. It got me curious. And now, with this book, I can see even more 'anarchist' type of thoughts put forth. Maybe I am making the word 'anarchy' into my own definition of this, but somehow, through it, I address things with Christian consumerism that surround me and that bother me. On the one hand, in some circles, there is a complete dismissal and turning away from anything connected to Jesus. It often seems to come from a place of ignorance, of assuming something that holds no truth but in the mind of the speaker. And, then, on the other hand, are the people who have been blinded to key aspects of what it means to walk the Way. I'm on neither side, but am curious about those who speak of being in connection with a Power that resembles what I call God. Often, it seems, we hold common messages.
This book I'm reading, is brilliant with the historical context of what was happening in Jerusalem at the time of Christ's crucifixion. And, what's even more appreciated, is that they bring in other texts than just the Bible. In my thinking, they go together - what has been found extra-biblically supports what is written in the Gospels. I know the Gospels are written by 4 different people, which means there is room for small differences because ... oh ... they're different people! Get any 4 people together that watch the same car accident, and I promise you, there will be differences! This book uses, predominantly, the Gospel of Mark for its examination. And, with a deeper understanding of the Jewish people, their faith and their relationship to the Roman overlords of the time, it makes things a bit different. Something, that is actually occasionally in line with my developing 'anarchy'.
"God is a God of justice and righteousness and when worship substitutes for justice, God rejects God's temple - or, for us today, God's church." (p49) This was from the section on when Jesus threw out the people in the temple. I often wondered about this point - was it about selling in God's temple? or was there more going on here? And it seems that it's more ... much more. They were doing what they were supposed to do (due to the parts of the temple and what needed to be done in these parts for both the Roman law and the Jewish law); what Jesus made a point of was - making a statement against the violence that was present and taking a stand for non-violence. Making a statement against the structural levels of authority, and for the equality of all. In God's Kingdom, there is no higher or lower, but we are all the same. Similar to how he came in to Jerusalem from the East on Palm Sunday, a direct in-your-face subtle challenge. This is the 'anarchy' I am creating - one of non-violence, one of global responsibility, one of connection and community and equality, one of unconditional love. And what does that look like in life. "Taken together, and they must be taken together, those action-word combinations proclaim the already present kingdom of God, against both the already present Roman imperial power and the already present Jewish high-priestly collaboration. Jerusalem had to be retaken by a non-violent messiah rather than by a violent revolution, and the temple ritual had to empower justice rather than excuse one from it. What is involved for Jesus is an absolute criticism not only of violent domination, but of religious collaboration with it. In that criticism, of course, he stands with the prophets of Israel for the anti-imperial entry against violence (Palm Sunday) and the anti-temple action against injustice (Monday), but he also stands agaisnt those forms of Christianity that were used throughout the centuries to support imperial violence and injustice." (p.53)
So, that brings to Good Friday. Well, there was lots in between but I'm going to skip to the historical Good Friday. They do refer to the redemptive theology of this day (which I do believe) but they bring to consideration another supported understanding of it, which is most intriguing. I am very familiar with the concept of substitutionary sacrifice when unpacking the significance of Christ's death. All the elements that surround this theology, I get ... and, I even take it a step further and believe that it is for the redemption of Creation, not just to save man. This is, in part, where my inclusive theology has come from. This book, however, brings another piece to the puzzle. [To note, I am not an 'either-or' person but a 'both-and' provided one doesn't directly contradict the other.]
Mark's story is not so much about 'dying for all sinners' as it is 'pick up your cross and follow me'. In fact, reflection on Wednesday covers this. He reflects on the theology of atonement - at-one-ment ... comparing the disciples and their responses to the woman who pours the ointment on his head. What was very interesting to me was the suggestion was that she was the first one who 'got' what he was about, what his death meant. In fact, she was the first believer, the first 'Christian' ... before he died and rose again! She said, "Since (not if!) you are going to die and rise, I must anoint you now beforehand, because I will never have a chance to do it afterward." What an example! And, add to this, her demonstration of what it truly means to 'lead' in the Kingdom of God! What strikes me in all of this, is the action that is required. Not words, but action. It's not what we profess as much as the actions we give to support that profession. To be a Christian is not what we say but how we live. And how does Jesus ask that we live? following him with our cross, standing for non-violence in the face of violence, being a servant first, through persecution to death. (Sunday is yet to come.) This is not a happy life, full of money and good stuff. This is a difficult life! No wonder so many 'Christians' have changed it to what they want it to mean! But these Gospels are clear - the way of Christ is the way of the Cross. Non-violence calling out the injustice!
Mark makes clear how the law manipulated it so that the crowd who cheered Jesus' entry on Sunday was not the same crowd that cried for his death on Friday. When asked if Jesus believes himself to be the King of the Jews, one script said, "I am" ... and another said, "Am I?" which would continue Jesus' responding questions with questions, that is present throughout the earlier chapters of this week. All other people in this story - from Barrabas to the two crucified on either side of Christ were all revolutionaries. The thing is ... they all, but Jesus, advocated a violent revolution. Christ, alone, advocated a non-violent revolution - a revolution of the heart, of the soul, of message.
The book takes a look at what crucifixion was, what was it used for, how was it done. And, there is nothing like this in our world today. Save, perhaps the assassination of Jamal Khashoggi, a Saudi dissident and journalist for the Washington Post. That seems to have been pretty brutal, even by today's standards. He also reflects on the darkness, the ripping of the temple cloth, and the wonderful role of women. All, possibly true, but definitely symbolic and powerful. Darkness likely was not actual (as there is no astronomical proof of anything like this at that time), but there certainly was a 'darkness' in understanding, in grief and judgement. The ripping of the fabric - also. A continuation of the message of equality, of removal of hierarchies that was at the center of Christ's preaching, even as recent as the last Monday. And women? The last mention of the disciples in Mark was when they fled from the Garden ... but the women continue to make various appearances - from near the cross to preparing the body, to the first to the tomb on Easter morning. I like that they were a significant part of this part of the story!
Apparently, in the early days around and after the crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus, there were many thoughts regarding what this was and what it meant. I'm not going to go into all of that, but there was one statement that struck me. "According to Mark, Jesus did not die for the sins of the world. The language of substitutionary sacrifice for sin is absent from his story. But in an important sense, he was killed because of the sin of the world. It was the injustice of domination systems that killed him, injustice so routine that it is part of the normalcy of civilization." (p.162-63) My personal thought on this is ... could it not be both? I think that if you isolate only one reason, you are missing a lot of the meaning. I could definitely see how 'because of sin' is part of the picture, but I don't want to lose the 'for the sin' either. I think there is enough scriptural justification for both.
What this new phrase brings to the picture for me is a collaboration, of sorts. Because of the sin - in my mind, that is something that is part of us all. We are all sinners, we all sin. And it is this collective sin that brought Christ to his death. However, this brings to my thoughts - was it only the sin on earth to then, or the sin throughout history? In that way, both 'because' and 'for' make most sense to me. In my mind, in my understanding, it is because of ALL sin, and for ALL sin. In which we all have a piece. And, as I mentioned earlier, both would support my developing belief of redemption for all of creation.
Friday ... yesterday. Today, he is in the tomb. Tomorrow morning ... a New Life.
But until then, we are still in the tomb with him. We are still in darkness.
This is about me in the big picture, about looking at the small to make sense of the big. We are in a time of great change, and if we do not enter that change with a confidence in self - who we are and where we come from and those we journey with - we will succumb to fears and inaccuracies and chaos. This is my attempt to make sense of that ocean, of that galaxy, to find my way through the chaos to inner strength and greater purpose of self; to become more than I am.
Saturday, April 11, 2020
Sunday, April 5, 2020
Lent 2020 - Palm Sunday
Expectations
Still in the middle of the COVID-19 world-wide shut down. Life moves ahead, and not. What a strange time to be alive!
Today is Palm Sunday, the beginning of Holy Week in the traditional, Christian calendar. Palm Sunday - a day steeped in Christian History, a detailed story about this day in the life of Jesus.
I was reading about the historical context, about what was going on in Jerusalem at this time. The Roman control, the temple politics, the leaders and the oppression of the people. How they had lost their land, how they were - for centries, a displaced people. I get how angry and frustrated they must have been. I get that they were ready for someone connected to their historical King David, a wonderful, prosperous time, to bring it back again. Kind of reminds me of the people from the USA - how they heard someone hoping for leadership who said, "I will make this country great again!" That's what these people wanted, that's what they longed for.
So, when this man came in from the east on a donkey, like was predicted, at the same time that the Roman rule came in from the west, they thought this was the moment, the time they had been waiting for! Praying for! This man was going to return their land to them! He was going to make it all right again! He was going to make their country great again! Their expectations were that he was going to put those horrible Romans in their place! and kick them ouut of the land! He was going to take back the temple! He was going to return the Kingdom to the wonderful days of King David!
Finally, after all the persecution, after all the slavery, things were going to be great again!
Hosannah! Free us! Make this land great again! Make our people great again!
Boy, did they have that wrong.
Today, we, too, have all sorts of expectations - on how our government is supposed to help us, on how friends are supposed to treat us, on how family is supposed to be there, on what our life is supposed to be like. Where is the life I've expected to be mine? Where is the house? the husband? the family? the job?
Hosannah! Free me! Make my life great again!
But that's not how it is. Right now, with this COVID-19, we have no idea where we are going. Sure, the government is saying they will help, but there are no guarantees. We want them to rescue us, we want to be saved, we want things to return to what they were before ... before the virus, before the gas prices bottomed out, before the economy started to crumble, before Trudeau was PM, before ... before ... before ...
Lent is a time of sacrifice. It leads to Jerusalem. It's a path where there is no doubt what the end will bring. It leads to the cross. And to death. "Pick up your cross and follow me." The destination is sure.
Jesus' desire wasn't to return the Jewish nation to what was ... it was about entering into a whole new way of doing things. Not about going back, but about moving forward. This path was taking them to a whole new way of living, of connecting, of being. "His protest was against the domination system legitimated in the name of God, a domination system radically different from what the already present and coming Kingdom of God, the dream of God, would be like ... HIs voice was a Jewish voice about what loyalty to the God of Judaeism truly meant.
"Two processions entered Jerusalem on that day. The same question, the same alternative, faces those who would be faithful to Jesus today. Which procession are you in? Which procession do we want to be in? This is the question of Palm Sunday." (Borg and Crossan)
It's not about going back, but about the way forward. It's not about making life great again, but about death to self from the resurrection that is coming.
But before it comes, it's going to first get much, much harder.
Especially if you pick a certain procession, a certain way to join.
It will lead to the cross.
And to death.
Death to self is the cost.
Still in the middle of the COVID-19 world-wide shut down. Life moves ahead, and not. What a strange time to be alive!
Today is Palm Sunday, the beginning of Holy Week in the traditional, Christian calendar. Palm Sunday - a day steeped in Christian History, a detailed story about this day in the life of Jesus.
I was reading about the historical context, about what was going on in Jerusalem at this time. The Roman control, the temple politics, the leaders and the oppression of the people. How they had lost their land, how they were - for centries, a displaced people. I get how angry and frustrated they must have been. I get that they were ready for someone connected to their historical King David, a wonderful, prosperous time, to bring it back again. Kind of reminds me of the people from the USA - how they heard someone hoping for leadership who said, "I will make this country great again!" That's what these people wanted, that's what they longed for.
So, when this man came in from the east on a donkey, like was predicted, at the same time that the Roman rule came in from the west, they thought this was the moment, the time they had been waiting for! Praying for! This man was going to return their land to them! He was going to make it all right again! He was going to make their country great again! Their expectations were that he was going to put those horrible Romans in their place! and kick them ouut of the land! He was going to take back the temple! He was going to return the Kingdom to the wonderful days of King David!
Finally, after all the persecution, after all the slavery, things were going to be great again!
Hosannah! Free us! Make this land great again! Make our people great again!
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Boy, did they have that wrong.
Today, we, too, have all sorts of expectations - on how our government is supposed to help us, on how friends are supposed to treat us, on how family is supposed to be there, on what our life is supposed to be like. Where is the life I've expected to be mine? Where is the house? the husband? the family? the job?
Hosannah! Free me! Make my life great again!
But that's not how it is. Right now, with this COVID-19, we have no idea where we are going. Sure, the government is saying they will help, but there are no guarantees. We want them to rescue us, we want to be saved, we want things to return to what they were before ... before the virus, before the gas prices bottomed out, before the economy started to crumble, before Trudeau was PM, before ... before ... before ...
Lent is a time of sacrifice. It leads to Jerusalem. It's a path where there is no doubt what the end will bring. It leads to the cross. And to death. "Pick up your cross and follow me." The destination is sure.
Jesus' desire wasn't to return the Jewish nation to what was ... it was about entering into a whole new way of doing things. Not about going back, but about moving forward. This path was taking them to a whole new way of living, of connecting, of being. "His protest was against the domination system legitimated in the name of God, a domination system radically different from what the already present and coming Kingdom of God, the dream of God, would be like ... HIs voice was a Jewish voice about what loyalty to the God of Judaeism truly meant.
"Two processions entered Jerusalem on that day. The same question, the same alternative, faces those who would be faithful to Jesus today. Which procession are you in? Which procession do we want to be in? This is the question of Palm Sunday." (Borg and Crossan)
It's not about going back, but about the way forward. It's not about making life great again, but about death to self from the resurrection that is coming.
But before it comes, it's going to first get much, much harder.
Especially if you pick a certain procession, a certain way to join.
It will lead to the cross.
And to death.
Death to self is the cost.
************
Sunday, March 22, 2020
Lent 2020 - on Day 26
The Difference A Day Makes ... or 12 of them
We are in unprecedented times .. for our time, anyway. We, who have become accustomed to living as 'I' see fit, and disregard anyone that does not fit 'my' way of thought ... we, as a globe, have been brought to our knees. Within a month, or less, an international pandemic has become the reality for everyone, except Antarctica (at this time). Our world will never be what it once was. The thing is, this is not the first world pandemic and not the first time everything has come to a halt. It's just the first time in about 100 years. And what a wake-up call it is!
I should have started to document this when I first heard about 'something' in China. In December 2019. Then, I remember hearing something in the new year about a cruise ship that was infected. And then the reports throughout the world became more frequent. China, Italy, Iran, and now Switzerland all are in dire straights. And for a long time, the USA was reporting "nothing to see here!" ... and now they've had the rug pulled out from under them as well. Earlier this month, the WHO declared this as a world wide pandemic - once the "coronavirus", now has an official name - COVID-19. Not 'Dr. Tripps' level, but definitely making its mark and changing the world. We are all affected by it. We are all on alert.
I should have tracked this from when it started in China, to the next time I heard about it was on a cruise ship, and then to North America. Maybe because I, like so many others, thought, "This isn't as bad as the common flu. Many more people die from that than from this. What's the fuss?" Even though I dismissed it in the beginning, something bothered me that it was so strongly in the news. The common flu is far more contagious (spreads to more people) and kills far more people, but what this one had that the others did not was - it is new, and no one has any antibodies for it, and there is no vaccine and it lasts longer in the environment. So, if we dismiss it (as so many have, as did I), it actually is spreading so much more and very quickly. And, in small ways, it's much more serious.
The WHO (World Health Organization) declared it a world pandemic on March 11th. Eleven days ago. And since then, it has spread like wild-fire, especially in places that ignored the announcement and continued life as usual. About 10 days ago, we (as in Canada, and Alberta) started shutting down. At first, there were a few places still open - malls, theatres, restaurants. But now, all is shut down to 'flatten the curve' - to spread out the diagnoses by restricting gatherings. My agency is still open because it is considered a 'necessary service' for people in need, so I still go to work. I am alone, for the most part, and it is strange when people come in, with their child, and behave like nothing is different ... when they disregard our instructions, from the agency as well as from the government. It reminds me of me ... and I'm not that any more. As of today, the report I heard said worldwide, more than 307,000 people have now contracted the novel corona-virus and at least 12,944 have died. In Canada, there are now more than 1,400 confirmed cases, and at least 20 deaths. In Alberta: 259 (33 new from yesterday) and 1 death. Schools are now closed in most of the country, restaurants and bars mostly open only for take-out service, and movie theatres, concert halls, and other public gathering spaces locked up. The highway I take to and from work has about 20% of the traffic it had before this. And now ... there's rumour of a second wave beginning.
A few months ago, somewhere last summer or just into fall, I came up with an idea for my novel ... a pandemic. But one that was a 2-parter. The first part was ... like a flu. Something that infected many people but had a very low death rate. Something that most people didn't even realize they had. And then there was a 2nd coming ... something about 6 months to a year after, that came back with a vengeance and had a 100% death rate for whoever had contacted it before. This would mean that only those who never caught it the first time would become immune. And now ... I wonder if there was any truth in that thought.
I will come back in a few days and reflect on any changes. At this point, I am still at work, but I live a pretty isolated life to begin with. It is easy to go from moment to moment with no contact with anyone else. Thank goodness for social media and the internet! I wonder how many days I will be at work this coming week. And ... there is a sense of irony that this is all happening during Lent! a time of penitential preparation for rebirth. There is an interesting message in that! Perhaps for the next reflection.
From Foreign Policy publication, Article on After the Pandemic a few notes:
How the World Will Look After the Pandemic:
"Just as this disease has shattered lives, disrupted markets and exposed the competence (or lack thereof) of governments, it will lead to permanent shifts in political and economic power in ways that will become apparent only later. Foreign Policy asked 12 leading thinkers from around the world to weigh in with their predictions for the global order after the pandemic." Check the linked article as there is more information under each point.
These include:
1. A world less open, prosperous, and free
2. End of globalization as we know it
3. More China-centric globalization
4. Democracies will come out of their shell
5. Lower profits but more stability
6. Serve a useful purpose - learn from other countries, for those that took action swiftly seem to be 'winning' now
7. American power will need a new strategy
8. History of COVID-19 will be written by the victors
9. Dramatic changes in global capitalism
10. Difficulty in recovery will lead to weakened states as they fail to deal with it
11. USA has failed the leadership test - will no longer be seen as a global leader.
12. In every country, we see the power of the human spirit.
We are in unprecedented times .. for our time, anyway. We, who have become accustomed to living as 'I' see fit, and disregard anyone that does not fit 'my' way of thought ... we, as a globe, have been brought to our knees. Within a month, or less, an international pandemic has become the reality for everyone, except Antarctica (at this time). Our world will never be what it once was. The thing is, this is not the first world pandemic and not the first time everything has come to a halt. It's just the first time in about 100 years. And what a wake-up call it is!
I should have started to document this when I first heard about 'something' in China. In December 2019. Then, I remember hearing something in the new year about a cruise ship that was infected. And then the reports throughout the world became more frequent. China, Italy, Iran, and now Switzerland all are in dire straights. And for a long time, the USA was reporting "nothing to see here!" ... and now they've had the rug pulled out from under them as well. Earlier this month, the WHO declared this as a world wide pandemic - once the "coronavirus", now has an official name - COVID-19. Not 'Dr. Tripps' level, but definitely making its mark and changing the world. We are all affected by it. We are all on alert.
I should have tracked this from when it started in China, to the next time I heard about it was on a cruise ship, and then to North America. Maybe because I, like so many others, thought, "This isn't as bad as the common flu. Many more people die from that than from this. What's the fuss?" Even though I dismissed it in the beginning, something bothered me that it was so strongly in the news. The common flu is far more contagious (spreads to more people) and kills far more people, but what this one had that the others did not was - it is new, and no one has any antibodies for it, and there is no vaccine and it lasts longer in the environment. So, if we dismiss it (as so many have, as did I), it actually is spreading so much more and very quickly. And, in small ways, it's much more serious.
The WHO (World Health Organization) declared it a world pandemic on March 11th. Eleven days ago. And since then, it has spread like wild-fire, especially in places that ignored the announcement and continued life as usual. About 10 days ago, we (as in Canada, and Alberta) started shutting down. At first, there were a few places still open - malls, theatres, restaurants. But now, all is shut down to 'flatten the curve' - to spread out the diagnoses by restricting gatherings. My agency is still open because it is considered a 'necessary service' for people in need, so I still go to work. I am alone, for the most part, and it is strange when people come in, with their child, and behave like nothing is different ... when they disregard our instructions, from the agency as well as from the government. It reminds me of me ... and I'm not that any more. As of today, the report I heard said worldwide, more than 307,000 people have now contracted the novel corona-virus and at least 12,944 have died. In Canada, there are now more than 1,400 confirmed cases, and at least 20 deaths. In Alberta: 259 (33 new from yesterday) and 1 death. Schools are now closed in most of the country, restaurants and bars mostly open only for take-out service, and movie theatres, concert halls, and other public gathering spaces locked up. The highway I take to and from work has about 20% of the traffic it had before this. And now ... there's rumour of a second wave beginning.
A few months ago, somewhere last summer or just into fall, I came up with an idea for my novel ... a pandemic. But one that was a 2-parter. The first part was ... like a flu. Something that infected many people but had a very low death rate. Something that most people didn't even realize they had. And then there was a 2nd coming ... something about 6 months to a year after, that came back with a vengeance and had a 100% death rate for whoever had contacted it before. This would mean that only those who never caught it the first time would become immune. And now ... I wonder if there was any truth in that thought.
I will come back in a few days and reflect on any changes. At this point, I am still at work, but I live a pretty isolated life to begin with. It is easy to go from moment to moment with no contact with anyone else. Thank goodness for social media and the internet! I wonder how many days I will be at work this coming week. And ... there is a sense of irony that this is all happening during Lent! a time of penitential preparation for rebirth. There is an interesting message in that! Perhaps for the next reflection.
From Foreign Policy publication, Article on After the Pandemic a few notes:
How the World Will Look After the Pandemic:
"Just as this disease has shattered lives, disrupted markets and exposed the competence (or lack thereof) of governments, it will lead to permanent shifts in political and economic power in ways that will become apparent only later. Foreign Policy asked 12 leading thinkers from around the world to weigh in with their predictions for the global order after the pandemic." Check the linked article as there is more information under each point.
These include:
1. A world less open, prosperous, and free
2. End of globalization as we know it
3. More China-centric globalization
4. Democracies will come out of their shell
5. Lower profits but more stability
6. Serve a useful purpose - learn from other countries, for those that took action swiftly seem to be 'winning' now
7. American power will need a new strategy
8. History of COVID-19 will be written by the victors
9. Dramatic changes in global capitalism
10. Difficulty in recovery will lead to weakened states as they fail to deal with it
11. USA has failed the leadership test - will no longer be seen as a global leader.
12. In every country, we see the power of the human spirit.
Sunday, March 8, 2020
Lent 2020 - on Day 12
Changing your life is not easy. Old habits can be very entrenched in the day to day living. What do they say - a new habit can be made in 20 days, but it takes a lifetime to break them? Well, I'm not even sure about that. I have a couple of books on habits ... maybe I should read them and see what they share with me. Look for a review on The Power of Habit by Charles Duhigg and Gretchen Rubin's Better Than Before. I own them both, but have yet to read them.
This last week has been a challenge ... it seems that has become the title for my life "A Challenge"! ... and yet I look at the stories of others and I know mind is ... well, it's mine. And I don't think it would be right of me to compare mine with others. That would also mean that mine is for me to manage, to deal with, to overcome and to build upon, right? I did sit and reflect on those words for Lent 2020 that I put forth last time - Sacrifice, Reflection, Contemplation, Preparation.
And here's what I came up with:
Sacrifice - what am I going to give up for this time? (1) using my cell in bed, (2) media after 9:30 PM, (2) food on Saturday and Sunday;
Reflection - (1) Where have I been? (complete Me Inc) and (2) What have I yet to become? (goals);
Contemplation - daily (1) prayer/meditation and (2) journalling; and
Preparation - (1) external cleaning and action and (b) internal work.
So ... that's the plan ... now, to figure out how to do it, because if the last week is any indication, I'm not on the winning side.
Perhaps to print it out, to post it somewhere, to have it so it is a constant reminder ... perhaps that's a place to start?
Add ... I have a friend who is also wanting to make a change in her life, a change to more health. We are trying to encourage each other, perhaps also be accountable to each other, and it's been a month, and so far, a bunch of up and down. For her - a life-change (move) and lots of company. On the one hand, I want to give her a break, say that perhaps now is not the time for her ... and yet, the fact is that all these 'inserts' into life, these detours, and changes are part of life. And if we can't figure out how to stay focused in spite of them, then ... we'll never achieve. Somehow I have to figure out how to push through, so I can share with her the secret, the method.
Let me do so that I may share.
Amen.
This last week has been a challenge ... it seems that has become the title for my life "A Challenge"! ... and yet I look at the stories of others and I know mind is ... well, it's mine. And I don't think it would be right of me to compare mine with others. That would also mean that mine is for me to manage, to deal with, to overcome and to build upon, right? I did sit and reflect on those words for Lent 2020 that I put forth last time - Sacrifice, Reflection, Contemplation, Preparation.
And here's what I came up with:
Sacrifice - what am I going to give up for this time? (1) using my cell in bed, (2) media after 9:30 PM, (2) food on Saturday and Sunday;
Reflection - (1) Where have I been? (complete Me Inc) and (2) What have I yet to become? (goals);
Contemplation - daily (1) prayer/meditation and (2) journalling; and
Preparation - (1) external cleaning and action and (b) internal work.
So ... that's the plan ... now, to figure out how to do it, because if the last week is any indication, I'm not on the winning side.
Perhaps to print it out, to post it somewhere, to have it so it is a constant reminder ... perhaps that's a place to start?
Add ... I have a friend who is also wanting to make a change in her life, a change to more health. We are trying to encourage each other, perhaps also be accountable to each other, and it's been a month, and so far, a bunch of up and down. For her - a life-change (move) and lots of company. On the one hand, I want to give her a break, say that perhaps now is not the time for her ... and yet, the fact is that all these 'inserts' into life, these detours, and changes are part of life. And if we can't figure out how to stay focused in spite of them, then ... we'll never achieve. Somehow I have to figure out how to push through, so I can share with her the secret, the method.
Let me do so that I may share.
Amen.
Sunday, March 1, 2020
Lent 2020
I wish I had thought about this sooner, and marked this year with contemplation through the liturgical season. I sort of started ... but it never registered to become a conscious journey. Until today.
Last week (February 25) marked Shrove Tuesday ... and then Ash Wednesday, to begin the 40 days. Today is 35 more days, and I think I can still do something and make these days count for something. I remember when I fasted with Pathways, and I learned that fasting is not only the removal of food, but a conscious replacement of prayer. Lent is a time for reflection and preparation by replicating the sacrifice and withdrawal into the desert for these days. Perhaps it is a good time to embark upon what I need to embark upon ...
Before Christmas, I made a rather significant discovery of self. In part, it has to do with cleaning, but it also has to do with preparing for death, for living this next chapter in fullness of what is possible. It seemed to me to be the time to set my mind to this and make effort into the preparation for a new life.
For the next 35 days, I wish to reflect on the life I have lived to now, the lesssons I’ve learned and the person into which I have been shaped. Let me imagine the person I want to yet become, and begin the journey to that place. This means not only internal, but to do the hard work needed externally.
I know what I need to do, I do not need to write it here. What I will write here is to return Thursday April 9th to report on this endeavour.
Sacrifice, reflection, contemplation ... preparation.
Let those words be my breathing prayers.
For the next 35 days.
Amen.
Last week (February 25) marked Shrove Tuesday ... and then Ash Wednesday, to begin the 40 days. Today is 35 more days, and I think I can still do something and make these days count for something. I remember when I fasted with Pathways, and I learned that fasting is not only the removal of food, but a conscious replacement of prayer. Lent is a time for reflection and preparation by replicating the sacrifice and withdrawal into the desert for these days. Perhaps it is a good time to embark upon what I need to embark upon ...
Before Christmas, I made a rather significant discovery of self. In part, it has to do with cleaning, but it also has to do with preparing for death, for living this next chapter in fullness of what is possible. It seemed to me to be the time to set my mind to this and make effort into the preparation for a new life.
For the next 35 days, I wish to reflect on the life I have lived to now, the lesssons I’ve learned and the person into which I have been shaped. Let me imagine the person I want to yet become, and begin the journey to that place. This means not only internal, but to do the hard work needed externally.
I know what I need to do, I do not need to write it here. What I will write here is to return Thursday April 9th to report on this endeavour.
Sacrifice, reflection, contemplation ... preparation.
Let those words be my breathing prayers.
For the next 35 days.
Amen.
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